The Soul knows what the mind begins to doubt, and yet there is a strange energy surrounding these past few weeks. But today, more so than before, it feels different, heavier, more present, harder to ignore.

I don’t feel like speaking about the usual purpose of my posts, which is to inspire and motivate. Instead, I find myself preoccupied with a personal experience, one that has exposed me to what I can only describe as a sense of darkness within humanity. Not abstract, not distant, but real and felt.

Many of us, have encountered what we might call demons, whether from the spirit world or within the human condition itself. Some darker, some lighter, some passing. But seldom have I encountered something that felt so deeply unsettling, something that presented itself as a man, yet carried an energy that did not feel human at all.

What I have come to realise is that this presence was not isolated. It did not stand alone. There are others, many others, moving quietly, existing within the form of men and women, blending into everyday life in ways that are not always immediately visible.

As I read narratives across the news and observe the wider world, it becomes more apparent that this darkness is not confined to individual experience. It feels as though it has filtered into humanity at multiple levels, subtle in some places, overt in others.

Narcissism

These individuals, or energies, possess a power of persuasion that is difficult to comprehend. In human terms, we might label this behaviour as narcissism. But a narcissist is still human, often someone out of control, yet convinced they are entirely in control. What I am describing feels different. Deeper. More calculated.

What once appeared to be a series of personal attacks, coming from multiple directions, now feels like something broader, almost as if it reflects a wider shift, a pressure being placed on humanity itself. That realisation is both concerning and unsettling.

Surrounded by Light

Despite this, I continue to surround myself with Light each day. I trust in it. I believe in its strength and its ability to rise above darkness. Yet, if I am being honest, there is a quiet voice within that asks a question I have rarely entertained before: What if we are wrong?

Fear is a deeply human experience. It has been part of us for millennia. It shapes us, controls us at times, and challenges even the strongest sense of self. And in acknowledging that, I also recognise that I am not separate from it – I am human too.

The personal assaults, I believed I could withstand. And perhaps I still can. But I would be lying if I said they have not had an impact. I feel worn down. I feel tired. And in that tiredness, there is a sense of weakness I am not accustomed to. My Light feels as though it is dimming at times, as fear begins to edge its way into my psyche. Anxiety, in this form, is new to me, but I understand where it is coming from.

I share this not as a statement of defeat, but as an honest reflection. Because if there is one thing I believe, it is that none of us are truly alone in these experiences. And perhaps, in sharing them, we create a space where others recognise something within themselves too.

And in that recognition, there is a connection.

And in that connection, there is Light.

Be Your Heart

David Ellis